Category Archives: June 2015

5-dolla Lifestyle

Art, June 2015, P & H Cafe, Quick Thoughts, Random, Reasons for Things

I know a wise Canadian name Gwarsbane that lives by a simple rule. If a game isn’t 5$ or under, he probably won’t buy it. Nothing personal against all the people that want to pay more. He finds that it’s more fun to play many cheap games where he periodically finds gold nuggets instead of investing in the one polished gem. At least, that’s how I see it.

I feel the same way about entertainment. Not sure if I mentioned a 5$ lifestyle last summer, but it was definitely on my mind. I look at the options before me and think about what I’d get for a Lincoln. Not a lot in most parts of the city. However, if you just want to buy a coke, roughly 2$, you can be the bartender’s best friend with that $5. Or barista, ahem, for that matter.

Then it comes down to the ambiance. Always with the ambiance! Why do people want to be there. Me? I look for spots you’d find in postapocalyptic Frost poetry.

Frustration

Art, June 2015, Quick Thoughts

From top to bottom
and
the bottom
to the
top.

We can fall
from the sky
Not break

Then jump
From a touch
And crumble

Trembling
Waiting
Full of luster
Butterfly wings
Falling

Kiss me please!
Top
to
Bottom.

June 30

Art, Future Plans, June 2015, Quick Thoughts, Reasons for Things

There was chain lightning in the sky tonight. I caught a few decent glimpses on Instagram but then hurried home to get some work done. Energy work. The sky is literally crackling with magic.

I’ve discovered more of my shadow and it took me a moment to adjust.  I am used to hiding in plain sight.  Invisible in obviousness.  Nowadays I feel visible.  I feel like someone.  I like who I am enough to defend myself.

I am aware my shape is pleasing.   Maybe it’s DNA?  Maybe good habits?  I do know my body gets more pleasing the more I value myself as a person.  Boundaries and standards and all those other important things.

The glory of mother nature.  Behold.

 

He

Art, June 2015, Large Events, Reasons for Things

Kept me safe when I needed it most.
And yet always the effervescent host

Loves me and almost all my flaws
Even the ones that come on paws

Has my heart at all times whenever
While I continue to love him forever

 

June 29

Art, Daily Life, First Impressions, Future Plans, June 2015, Quick Thoughts, Reasons for Things

I woke up this morning.

After drifting away
The fog has dissipated
Snapped to attention
Seeing clearly and it’s
first time this summer.

The sun illuminates
And the moon glows
Neither see too
Well themselves.

Clarity
Focus
Driving west
Freedom’s best
When you know what you want.

Vibrant feelings
Wash over me
Rainbow sunshine
Don’t mind the glare.

Always, One Thing
I staunchly support
Is Equality
Whether or not
It applies to me.

Other marriages
Plans don’t changeOther divorces
Contracting
Human nature
Like you do.

The cats are clean
The room is swept.
Two more movesand many miles
Before I sleep.

Solstice

Art, June 2015, Quick Thoughts, Reasons for Things

I’m late cleaning.  I just digitally cleansed my phone.  I found pockets of debris from last year even.  It was not fun.  Made me realize the boxes of physical items from my past that I’m agonizing over isn’t really that much if you consider how much “stuff” we digitally haul around every day.

I got rid of something like a gignahalf of pictures and video.  Don’t even get me started about how all this plays into the bigger scheme of things.

Suffice it to say, I’m comfortable for the first time in ages.  Still have miles to go before I sleep.

June 28

Art, June 2015, Quick Thoughts, Random

Existing isn’t that hard.  Taking pride in my existence is where all the stress starts.

I do okay.  I work hard, stay honest and smile at strangers.  I pay my bills, brush my teeth and wear shoes in public.

When I have 4 hours of free time I don’t know what to do with myself.  I can’t hold still and enjoy the stillness.  Learning to hold still, i.e. yoga, is something I do to center but it’s still a form of work.  I want to be like my cat.  Just be still.

Warts n’ all

Art, June 2015, Quick Thoughts, Random

I’ve had a major breakthrough in my deep, personal exploration of human nature. An epiphany about motivation that is pivotal in my quest for internal peace.  Sexual frustration makes me obnoxious.

For example.  One of my biggest flaws is talking movies. It’s bad, I know. Unless a truly captivating movie renders me speechless, I’m compelled to ask questions (or worse). I pretty much never see movies in theaters.

As you can imagine, my relationships with movie lovers has suffered over the years. A few die-hard boyfriends (who all happen to like Die Hard) tolerate it and make sure never to watch new movies when I’m around. It’s a fine system, just means I don’t spend a lot of time watching movies. For better or worse.

There is one, oft overlooked solution.  Find a way to remove the frustration.

 

Hm?  Wonder why that’s never come up before?

June 27

Art, Daily Life, Future Plans, June 2015, Quick Thoughts

I missed a day. Fortunately, I think the interference has cleared and I made it up yesterday. I’m exhausted to my core. I feel like I’ve been punched in the gut repeatedly and my left arm is Rasputin.

I’ve taken stock of my resources and I’m pretty sure I’ll make it. I have patience on my side.

It’s a beautiful summer. I think I’ll play some video games.