Category Archives: Daily Life

Everything from impromptu thoughts to well-constructed observations.

Along Came Polly

Daily Life, mur, Quick Thoughts, Random, Reasons for Things

A Jennifer Aniston gem I never knew about. Star-packed supporting cast and snappy directing.  Ah!  Written/directed by the same guy that did I Love You Man.  It feels way too dated to be from 2004 though.  There’s a plot point based on *69.   Reminds me of the 90s.

I did some serious cleaning and straightening.  Made appointments with all the pertinent people.  The final clean out is yet to be scheduled.  Despite my desire to just throw everything away and start driving, there are people who want some of this shit.  If I was an asshole I could just tell them to go fuck themselves.  Problem is, I’m a nice person.

It’s not a choice, I just am.  Even when I’m in a tight skirt.  Even when I’m turning a guy down.  Even when I’m desperately in love.  I’m nice.  It’s a personality flaw I developed while playing opossum in high school.  I figured if I’m going to be miserable all the time anyway, might as well smile.  That’s probably the same reason that guy at Juice smiled at me.  Funny.

 

Grave

Art, Daily Life, Future Plans, mur

I’m done digging now.

I know from all the stories that I’m the villainess in this equation. I’m white, moneyed and getting what I want.

I have abandoned the only humans to show me any love. The other animals have the good sense to die.

The farther gone I am, the less I will feel this particular pain. The loneliness remains constant.

There aren’t enough pills in the world to fix what’s wrong with me. With luck, there are just enough in this bottle to finish me off.

98% chance I’m going to be just fine. Without Facebook, I’d say 100%, except no one could ever know.

Like I was never here.

Child of Light

First Impressions, Games, Quick Thoughts, Random

This game is beautifully crafted.  The watercolor-like scenery and low-gravity flow of movement lends an airy, relaxed feeling.  The music composed primarily of piano and minimal arrangement supports the easy-going feeling.  Playing on casual seems like the only real option because the interactive play control is painfully slow.

Of course, this is just the tutorial.  The battles are a mix of meters and turn-based actions.  Interactive enough to keep my attention but lackadaisical enough to avoid pressure.  This little girl carries a big sword and her leveling system encourages me to use it.

Plot is pretty cute so far.  Little princess falls into a mysterious slumber.  She’s trapped in a mystical dreamland that Tim Burton might create for Bethesda.  There’s a blue teardrop that aides the redheaded protagonist with advice and ambient lighting.  On my Surface, controlling the mouse-based bugger is awkward.  When I’m settled in my new place I’ll have my old gaming desktop set up.  Can’t wait.

Spilled

Amurica, Art, Games, mur, Quick Thoughts, Reasons for Things

Last night I put a dream to rest.  Continue reading Spilled →

Stuck

Daily Life, mur, Quick Thoughts

Stuck in a halfway point. Not here, definitely not there. No traction for my activities or interactions. No reason to even leave home. Better to save my money. Reserve my energy.

If it weren’t for my job, I’d start driving today.

Irresponsible

Daily Life, mur, Quick Thoughts

I was late to work today. I stayed out drinking all night before. That’s how the story goes at least. I definitely didn’t go home early and spend half the night in shock, staring at the ceiling. There was no tossing, turning, or vomiting of any kind. My capricious joy about moving to a new city is certainly not a front for the scalding ulcer of self-doubt and insecurity festering underneath my heart. Sad truth is, it doesn’t matter. I was late, that’s not good.

I have to get my shit together. For some reason, I have to make it look easy or everyone loses faith and the whole thing shatters.  Even though it’s not easy.  Not even the fun parts. In my defense, I work well under pressure and two weeks is a long fucking time. I don’t know what the future holds and I’m not straining my neck to see. I’m right here, one day at a time. A Course in Miracles starts with just being.

Tomorrow, I book flights, make vet appointments and cancel my internet service. That sets the timeline. By this time next month, I should be in Seattle with two pissed-off cats.

Tentative Travel Plans

Daily Life, Future Plans, Quick Thoughts

15 hours to Albuquerque
99$ Hampton Inn Stay
Night
6 hours to Grand Canyon
Take pictures
7 hours to LA area.
Night
Visit with friends.
14 to Portland
Night with friend.
3 hours Seattle.

Exception State

Quick Thoughts

Washington is one of those states that gets listed in the exceptions. I’ve never lived in an exceptional state. Waddling near the Mason Dixon, living in a network broadcasting area. I feel like Mowgli crawling out of a red jungle, barely more than an animal, so used to the levers and pulleys of franchised drama.

I won’t know how to support myself if they hold me accountable for ALL of my actions.